As the world turns......

so do I. This little poem was on the program for Chicopee Woods 5th grade honor day on Friday.

"As the world turns,

so do you.

When you change for the good

you change the world too!"

I had never heard that before so I came home and googled it and found that it was from a book called "Wings of Change". The story is about Anew the caterpillar who is happy the way he is (as a caterpillar) and is afraid of growing up into a butterfly. His good friend the snail tells him the above phrase.

Friday brought the closing of another school year. That ending has brought me into a contemplative state this weekend. This school year was a whirlwind to say the least. I started off the year as an interim 5th grade teacher teaching reading and writing. About three weeks into the school year, I went back to my normal job as EIP teacher teaching math all day. The year was going great. In January, I went for a job interview for a county math position that I did not get. As a result of my interview though, I was offered my dream job as math coach. I started that in mid-January at a different school. So needless to say, three different jobs in one school year while working on my specialist degree makes for a CRAZY year.

What have I learned from the chaos though? I've learned that God's got it. Even in the craziness of the chaos, God is in control. Through a couple different emotional breakdowns this school year, I have to admit that it was one of the best ever. I absolutely love my job. When I went back to Chicopee Woods for Destiny's honors day and the 5th grade honors program, it was kind of like closure to another chapter in my life. Next school year will begin with me as a full time math coach which will hopefully stay the same all year. LOL! It will also means Destiny will be changing school systems to Habersham which makes me a little nervous. But what have I learned this year? The same thing that Anew the caterpillar learned. That.....

"As the world turns,

so do I.

When I change for the good,

I can touch the sky"

As long as I roll with the punches and change for the good, life is good. And I can face any obstacle in my path. For now, I'm going to enjoy the summer spending time with my family and friends and finishing my specialist degree. Then it will be back to school to start another wonderful year in education.

Happily Ever After.....

***DISCLAIMER....mushy blog to come***

So today is mine and Jason's 10th wedding anniversary. I still remember that day like it was yesterday. After a beautiful wedding and reception full of our friends and family, we headed to Gatlinburg for a wonderful honeymoon where we rented a cabin called "The Sugar Shack". Yeah, yeah go ahead and laugh. We got to the cabin and had a nice picnic snack that my aunt had packed for us when we left the reception. We enjoyed the rest of our week in Gatlinburg on a wonderful honeymoon where we spent time playing putt putt, going to Dollywood riding roller coasters and had enjoyed every second together.

Fast forward one year and we were graduating from college, remodeling our home, and beginning our lives as "adults". We made it through that first year as adults beautifully and still happier than ever. The next 2 years went by with the routine of working through the week, sleeping in on Saturdays and then we'd spend Saturday afternoon/evening watching movies, eating dinner, shopping, whatever we wanted to do really. Basically being a selfish couple who did what we wanted to do when we wanted to do it. Then after almost 3 years of marriage, we were expecting our first child and were excited and scared to death all at the same time.

Fast forward 9 months and we were holding our hearts in our hands when Destiny Lia was born. The next year was one of the hardest we ever faced as a couple. Destiny was a very sick infant who didn't sleep well which kept us all on edge for that whole year. We did it though. Looking back, I know now that we are better for it. We faced challenges that we overcame. Our love and persistence brought us through. The last 5 1/2 years since then have FLOWN by. We are both currently pursuing grad degrees, are working, and being the best parents we can be.

So what have I learned in these 10 years? That there is no other person on the face of the planet that I would rather wake up to everyday. Jason Gene Martin, I love you with every breath in me and I can only pray that I can be half the wife to you that you have been as a husband to me. Thank you for crying with me through the hard times, laughing with me through the good times, screaming with me through the aggravating times, and being silly with me in the wee hours of the morning when sleep was no where in sight. And thank you for being my rock, my lover, my soul mate, my best friend, and my prince charming. You are ALL that I will ever need and I can't wait to spend the next 70+ years of our life together, happily ever after! XOXOXO!

Life or something like it.....

My life has....morphed. Yeah, that's a good term for it. Things have changed for me in my career as well as in my spiritual life, my intellectual life, and any other area of my life that can change.

Jason and I had been leading a youth discipleship small group on Sunday nights since January 2009. We started off very strong with a WONDERFUL group of teenagers. Then we lost three of our students due to graduation and them going off to college. Summer attendance was down a little due to vacations, family stuff, etc. Then we kicked back off in August, again just as strong. Then around November, attendance started to become sporadic. We spent a lot of time in prayer and really felt like that God had called us to lay that down for awhile. So we talked with some friends and kind of started our own small group. We are going through the Seven series from our church setting goals for every area of our lives which is alot harder than I thought it would be.

I am also in the middle of getting my specialist degree which is kicking my tail. I chose this program because it was one of the cheaper programs and because it took the least amount of time. HOWEVER, I did not think about how hard this was going to be. Fall semester wasn't bad at all.....7 hours, 3 classes. Now, this semester is from the very pit of hell. 13 hours.......yep, that's FIVE freakin' classes on top of working full time and being a wife and mother. Thankfully, one of them is finished since we turned in our lit review last weekend but that was only a one hour class. SO, I still have 4 classes left this semester. I have pretty much reached the end of my rope so now I've tied a knot in the end of it and am hanging on for dear life. I have set a goal for myself to have my work for my practicum class done before Spring Break, which is next Friday. Why by next Friday you may ask.

Jason and I are going on our first cruise over Spring Break to celebrate our 10 year wedding anniversary. I can't believe that it has been 10 years. But can I just be mushy for a minute and say that I am blessed beyond measure by the most wonderful man on the face of the earth. He is EVERYTHING I could have ever dreamed of in a husband and a father to our beautiful daughter.

All in all, despite all the changes and all the stress, I am blessed. Blessed far beyond anything I could ever ask for. I gripe and whine with the best of them but with a little bit of introspection, I realize the thousands of blessings that I have EVERY DAY! So on that note I leave you with the simplicity of faith of my precious baby girl. This is her "story" that she wrote at school this week.
"I want to fly to see the God"

She helps me stay focused......on the things that matter!

What's Yours????

I don't even know where to begin to explain how full my heart is right now. I feel like God has blessed me SOOO much lately.

To begin, my daughter is the best....EVER!!! Last night as I was putting her to bed she volunteered to pray. Here's her prayer:

"Dear God, thank you for my mommy's new job and I pray that daddy gets home safely from class. And I want to take a moment to say thank you for all you've done for us. Sometimes people forget you but we won't. We will always give you praise, no matter what. Amen"

I can't believe that God has entrusted such a sweet spirit to Jason and I. I feel HONORED to be responsible for such a precious little girl. And more importantly, I feel VERY humbled. I only pray that I can have the kind of faith that says "I will praise you no matter what".

I started my new job last Friday and I am ABSOLUTELY loving it. I am still trying to figure out a schedule that works for me and all the teachers but I am so excited about being able to help other people get excited about math. It is a great faculty and staff and they are eager to learn.

I could go on and on about the blessings I have in my life, but for now that's enough. More to come later. But now I leave you with "what's yours"? What are your blessings? I would love to hear and praise God with you for them.

The Big Announcement

So I've been sort of secretly sharing my news via this blog and facebook. It is now official. I am the new math coach at Lyman Hall Elementary. Alot of you may be saying..."that's what all the hype was about...really?" But yes, and it's a lot more of a big deal than some of you may realize. In 2006, I decided that for once in my life, I was going to set a goal for myself and actually put steps in place to meet that goal. So I set my goal to be a math coach within the next five years from that point, which was in 2006. With my goal in place, the first step was grad school to get my master's degree. I decided to get my master's in elementary education with a specialization in elementary mathematics. From that point on, I made my goal known to my administration and set my yearly professional goals to improve in different areas of mathematics. Then my administrators had enough faith in me to put me in a somewhat math leadership role by being the math contact person for our school. At the beginning of December, I found out about a title I math position which is a position where the person would be working with faculty from all 10 title I schools in our county. I went for the interview and felt very good about it. It wasn't my ideal job but I really thought it would broaden my resume to eventually lead to my math coach position. Much to my surprise, the principal at Lyman Hall called to tell me they had offered the title I position to someone else but that the interview panel felt like I would be the best choice for another position that had previously been unannounced.....MATH COACH. I obviously accepted the position.

So I said all that to say that God really does know the desires of our heart and HE grants them, even in ways we don't understand or see coming. So Friday is my last day at Chicopee Woods. I'm very sad about leaving because I believe we have the best faculty in the WORLD, but I know God has bigger plans. So if you haven't dreamed a little lately, you should. Then set some goals from your dreams, put action steps in place, and seek HIS face and the dreams you have will be granted.

God really does grant the desires of your heart.....

So I was always raised in church and I have always struggled with having "heart knowledge" of God's word and not just "head knowledge". Heart knowledge being defined as the ability to put the faith and trust in God to match the verses from the bible that we all can quote. Well, I've always been reminded of and heard preached is Psalm 37:4. The NKJV version says it like this:

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

I have always heard that and have only seen it come to fruition in my life once. Not that God hasn't been faithful but I've always been bad about focusing myself on any one thing. I would haphazardly say "I want this" or "I want to do that" or "I want to go there" but I've never really set goals and stuck to them. The one time I remember that scripture becoming heart knowledge was the conception and birth of my daughter over 6 years ago. The last six years have had me really contemplating what the desires of my heart even were. I feel like I finally figured it all out about 3 years ago. I set some personal and professional goals for myself. This week has brought about the realization of the Lord giving me the desires of my heart. I can't publish this quite yet, but I have been in a very contemplative mood today. I am still in shock that one of my MAJOR goals has been accomplished. It is just so SURREAL! I can't wait to go into the next phase of my life where I set the next goal or desire of my heart. Because I finally think I've figured out how to make this scripture heart knowledge. Maybe one day I'll figure out how to make it all heart knowledge. All I know is that I'm glad God has patience with me along the way. LOL!

Oh, and I'll be able to share the details of my dream realized on Tuesday so come back and check it out!

I hate Dora

This is an actual quote from Destiny on the way to gymnastics tonight. When I asked her why, she told me, "Dora teaches you stuff you already know". This was after also telling me for like the millionth time that Dora is a baby show.

Just one more example of how she's growing up.